Two years ago I started this site with the name 'awil-um' thinking that it will organize my thoughts and it will be a great method to practice my English. As time passed, I started to invest more and more time into the idea, that is why Awil Magazine was born. I initially wanted to create a pdf archive of the articles on the blog but it evolved into a virtual magazine with the help of great writers like Michael johnson and Hristofor Hrisoskulov. With this occasion I would like to thank them for their work. That project was put on standby because I wanted to concentrate on this site alone, that's why the name was changed in order to describe the blog much more clearly, 'Thoughts in Perspective'. To understand my thoughts you must try to see from my perspective, which is actually not mine at all, but has its roots into the thoughts and writings of many intelligent and wise people around the world. I simply sew them around my personality. First of all, I see family very important because when I was a child my father left, when I was in my later teens my sister moved away and my stepfather died, in all this time my mother was excessively trying to be 2 in 1. From my father I learned the stereotypes of being a man and from my stepfather I learned that books and learning are maybe your closest friends. School thought me that I didn't want school because it was not the best place to learn things. Maybe I shouldn't be so categorical, school thought me what prejudices, envy, pride, hate, injustice and lack of creativity mean. I took what I needed but nothing more. I definitely was not a model child, being that would of meant surrendering, in the same time I admired the ones who could climb to the top, they had something that I didn't have and to be honest, didn't want.My perspective on life is that we must try to be better, not for diplomas, not for higher wages, not for our ego and definitely not for others. To do things for yourself is one of the best things in the world because you are, at least, sincere. Look at things as they are and ask yourself if this is the only way that they can be. Don't take my word for anything, I make mistakes and chances are you make them also, better to stay open to suggestions and mockery. Be a true friend to your friends, don't judge them and help them, do this because you want to, not because you expect something back, on the other hand if they don't give a fuck about your help, they are not your friends. Don't be envious on anyone, if someone has three cars and sleeps all day and you have a bicycle and work 12 hours a day, tough luck, get over it. When I was in high-school and skipping class I was often going in the park with a book and my Walkman, most often listening to rock, but occasionally some classical. I once started to read Cioran, more exactly, 'The Disadvantage of Being Born' (I also wrote an article about the book here). The idea is that he wrote something interesting: "You don't envy the ones who have the power to pray, while you are filled with malice against property owners, against those who know wealth and glory. It is strange that you live with the redemption of another, but not with the passing advantages that he can enjoy". An eye opener in my opinion.I made music, I wrote poetry, I used to walk for hours every day while reading poetry or listening to songs and fragments of songs to find out "how he did it". I used to draw most of the time when I was in class without having any talent at this, but I learned the basics and I let my imagination flow. On the other hand, I was and am relatively lazy and had the habit of starting many things and finishing only a couple, barely. And now we are back to this blog, a method to organize my thoughts and time. For two years I am writing here, all these thoughts, all these words are a part of me that I chose to make public. Everyone has his reasons for being here, for having an opinion or another, I offer you my perspective like others offered their perspectives to me.I would like to thank my sister for giving me my first books and my mother for her unconditional support. I would also like to thank my father for the lessons he taught me, my stepfather for the example he gave me, all my family, all my friends and 'enemies'. I tried to present them in chronological order, now it's time to thank my wife for her unconditional support and understanding, her love that gave me power to overcome difficulties and her opinions which often clarified my thoughts. You're a miracle Alexandra, pure and simple.Thanks to all my readers and sorry for writing such a pathetic article, but heck... I don't give a fuck ;) Check this blog often, interesting things are ahead.
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