My Petrichor Past

I am so fucking deliriously happy!

Published on 2011-12-16 21:10:16

Actually I am not fucking happy at all. I am, at best, in my usual state of apathy, mild depression, and crippling anxiety. But this new title is a desperate attempt to deflect all the “suicide traffic” my blog has been getting ever since I misguidedly wrote this post just over a year ago. As [...]

Two steps forward…one step back

Published on 2011-11-25 15:28:58

If there’s a God, I think that I must have done something to really piss him off. Every time it seems like my life is getting back on track, something happens to derail all my plans, and put me in a worse situation than before. That’s what happened with teaching. I moved out of the [...]

The Corporate Ladder

Published on 2011-11-18 01:31:06

Next week I’ll be getting interviewed for the customer service position I’ve been doing since February as a contractor who gets no benefits and only six days unpaid days of holiday a year. It’s a stupid, low-paid job, but my contract is up in February and if I don’t get hired on as a regular [...]

Breaking Promises

Published on 2011-09-20 22:23:15

Hello, little blog. It’s been a while – a month to be exact. I got a little tired of walking to the lake at lunchtime to blog frantically for the last fifteen minutes of my lunch break. It wasn’t terribly relaxing. Not much to report as usual. Same old dead-end job; broke; tired, depressed; self-hating [...]

Think Small

Published on 2011-08-20 23:53:04

I have this friend – well, ex-friend really – from the “motherland” who recently went to LA to do Bikram yoga teacher training. Even before she got there, I knew how it would all turn out, and I wasn’t wrong. I knew that she would end up meeting some rich guy whom she’d end up [...]

Motorcycle Emptiness

Published on 2011-08-18 23:35:41

Those of you around in the early to mid-nineties will know that the title of today’s post is actually a song by the Manic Street Preachers, the group I was utterly obsessed with from around the ages of fourteen to seventeen. I was particularly obsessed by Richey Edwards, the guitarist and main lyricist, who disappeared [...]

Needlework

Published on 2011-08-16 14:55:25

I’m back at my cliff, still throwing things off. No wait – that’s Björk. My reality is far less romantic. I’m back at my altar, munching on a tuna sandwich and trying desperately to squeeze in some writing before I have to head back to the office. It’s at times like these that I am [...]

Does this make me a stalker?!

Published on 2011-08-12 12:46:26

Oh, how I long for the good old days! Before the advent of the internet and social media, I would see a good-looking guy at a party, or wherever, and there would follow weeks, perhaps even months, of longing and wondering. Who was he? Where could I see him again? Most of the time I [...]

The Return of Breakroom Boy!

Published on 2011-08-10 14:44:57

When you spend forty hours a week doing a boring job, it’s the little things you end up relying on to get you through the day. Things that you would barely have given much thought before suddenly become all-important. It is for this reason that my attention has been drawn – a little more than [...]

Good riddance, Miss Proper Pants!

Published on 2011-08-09 23:01:08

Sitting on a new bench today. “Variety” as they say is the spice of life. And in a life as dull as mine even a new lunchtime seat makes all the difference. Tuesday is team-meeting day, and in it I learned that “Miss Proper Pants” and “Obnoxious Fucktard” will soon be leaving us (tomorrow!) to [...]