Blog Feed: Journal of a Male Childhood Abuse Survivor

There’s So Much Sadness In The World

Published on 2012-05-21 06:31:28

Today I realized I’m becoming a different person. I realized my eyes are more open than they ever were. I’m no longer blinded by my own ghosts and troubles. I went grocery shopping this morning and I saw a girl. She was skinny as hell, junkie-type, and as I looked in her eyes, I noticed > read more

Re-desiiiiiiign!

Published on 2012-05-19 14:27:52

Yeah, as you can see I revamped Prozacblogger.com into a bright, more structured and categorized lay-out. Much like I am getting more bright and structured. You like it? I hope so! Talk soon! Related posts: Changes How to Connect to More Survivors Easily How I Turned My Trauma into a Gift > read more

My Little Box of Hatred

Published on 2012-05-16 10:00:54

Almost a year ago someone left a comment on my blog, which has really chased me since then. I don’t remember her name; Veronica …Something. She told me to practice forgiveness towards my abusers, for the simple reason that they don’t deserve me to feel bad about it, to hate them, to spend one second thinking about them. While back then it sounded kind of good, now; a lot of progress later, I am finally able to explain how I dealt with the thought of my parents: my abusers. Let [..] > read more

What I Want To Say To All Victims of Abuse

Published on 2012-05-15 07:34:47

I’ve been receiving a lot of e-mails lately, from all over the world. Cries for help and questions. Hell, I even talked a man off the ledge a few weeks ago. I noticed similarities in all the letters. People with different experiences and different surroundings one similar worry: shame. Some were ashamed of what happened to them and needed someone to talk to, others were ashamed of how they were handling their life after the abuse. So I wanted to take this opportunity to speak to those who [..] > read more

Trying to Treat My Own Depression

Published on 2012-05-02 10:00:49

This is a guest post by Katie who has attempted to fight her depression and anxiety through lifestyle changes, or as she calls it “keep from descending into the darkness”. She shared this story with me hoping it might be of use to the readers of this blog. Thank you, Katie. I have often felt myself pulled towards the “darkness.” I don’t know if it’s part of my personality or if it is a result of the high-stress lifestyle I have and the Type A personality I have never been abl [..] > read more

Health effects of addiction

Published on 2012-04-29 10:00:18

This is a Guest Post from Myra Lemmons. Drugs is a topic that I rarely discuss at this blog, but since I have a few experiences with it myself. I thought I’d help her in her quest to raise awareness of the health effects of Drug Addiction. The health effects of addiction come in many forms. People young and old experience health effects of addiction whether they are suffering from an addiction to alcohol or even an addiction to prescription drugs.  All of the health effects of addiction c [..] > read more

How Killing My Father Keeps Me Calm

Published on 2012-04-27 10:00:18

It was my birthday last saturday. I was worried my father was going to come by. I can’t stand the idiot. We’ve had a lot of fights lately, since I decided to confront him about a few things. One thing he doesn’t like: confrontation. He’s the type of person that hits you in the face, turns around, apologizes, explains himself (with looong explanations) and expects you to forgive him. He’s an idiot of the highest order. No doubt.So anyway, I was worried he was going t [..] > read more

Parent Addicts and Child Abuse

Published on 2012-04-24 11:00:59

This is quite the heavy title for an article. You can probably guess that this topic is pretty serious. But really, isn’t everything involving addiction a serious topic? Addicts who only have themselves to worry about are one thing; but those who also have the added responsibility of children truly are a different case. Types of Abuse Typically when you hear the words ‘child abuse’ you think about people physically abusing their children. But there is a whole other side of abus [..] > read more

1 Thing All the Abused Have in Common

Published on 2012-04-18 05:32:20

Today Abel posted a comment on my post ‘It’s my Horrible Past!‘ and it occured to me that his story matched mine. Our story matched with so many other stories people have shared with me, that suffered thru child abuse. Of course the past bothers you, of course the memories and flashbacks of the beatings, name-calling and degrading spectacles are horrifying, but what seems to bother everyone the most are the emotions left by these events. The emotions these events created. The e [..] > read more

A Guest Post by Chynna Laird: Mothering In Lieu

Published on 2012-04-17 05:18:36

One question I’m often asked is, “Did you have any fear of becoming a mother with all that you went through with your own mother?” My answer is both yes and no. Yes, I was afraid but not about becoming a mother but more of mothering. I knew exactly what mothering wasn’t. It wasn’t hurtful or angry or resentful. I knew that to mother someone meant giving love unconditionally. It meant nurturing, patience and consistency. It meant giving undying support and being an unwavering, strong pr [..] > read more

Feelings: An Interesting Phenomenon

Published on 2012-03-16 18:30:51

A week ago I found out that a few years ago my father ripped me off about 6000 Euro’s. I’m not going to bore you with the details, but when I found out I needed to confront him about it. I can’t stand injustice and I couldn’t let him get away with this scam. With the way he disrespected me. It wasn’t about the money though, I just didn’t want to let him walk over me and get away with it like this. I knew now, and I had to let him know that I knew. My therapist [..] > read more

"I’d Rather Die Standing Than Live on My Knees."

Published on 2012-02-24 07:57:38

“I’d Rather Die Standing Than Live on My Knees.” - Emiliano Zapata Salazar (8 August 1879 - 10 April 1919) > read more

Hey there – cool blog you got going! Hope you don’t mind if I use some of your content later down the road, great stuff. New follower, can you please follow me back?

Published on 2012-02-19 12:36:02

No problem! As long as you mention where you got it from :) > read more

"A Pack of Cowards is the Most Dangerous Kind."

Published on 2012-02-18 06:47:48

“A Pack of Cowards is the Most Dangerous Kind.” > read more

It’s my Horrible Past!

Published on 2012-02-17 07:00:36

Lately I’m experiencing something new in my life. As I talk about my past and I write down every single experience I get closer to myself. To who I really am. Yesterday in a therapy session I realized how I actually felt something while I was talking about it. For the first time talking about it, it was painful. I used to be able to talk about my past like it was a movie that I had seen. This indicates how full of denial I was about it. I didn’t feel anything, as if it was a story I [..] > read more

"These days man know the price of everything, but the value of nothing."

Published on 2012-02-16 03:37:27

“These days man know the price of everything, but the value of nothing.” - Oscar Wilde > read more

"Be Yourself, Everyone Else is Taken."

Published on 2012-02-16 03:35:42

“Be Yourself, Everyone Else is Taken.” - Oscar Wilde > read more