Blog Feed: ALTERNATIVE PERSPECTIVE

The sword

Published on 2011-11-28 07:36:00

Selfless love...My lesson,my pain,My downfall!Loyalty & Devotion...My pride,my hope,My strength!Passion & Lust,...My life,my drug,My weakness!All of this melted together in the burning fire within;Cooled by the ice cold tears without;Forging my fate, my double-edged sword! > read more

Impossible dream

Published on 2011-11-20 12:06:00

Dreaming the impossible dream,wishing upon a star,but no use because even thoughyou are near,you are so damn far!I so desperately want to reach out,touch you and feel your warm embrace,but I dare not express myself unlessI want to stare rejection in the face.So much longing, so much passionburning me up deep inside,but I have to suffer this torturefor there is no place for me to hide. > read more

The Closet

Published on 2011-09-25 06:10:00

I often hear your innuendo & your jokes and I smile,but I know you mean it and inside I cry;Your secret taste not completely my kind,but I'm not supposed to know, so banish it from my mind;I stand next to you and stare at the screen transfixed....The shocking words in black and white,the truth staring me in the face and my fears finallymaterialized;To spare your feelings, I don't say a word and pretendthat all is okay. I can almost hear your sigh of relief.Do you know how much I fucking love you [..] > read more

Defining moments

Published on 2011-09-07 17:41:00

From the day we are born till the day we die, certain moments during the course of our lives have a tremendous impact. We don't always realize it, but these moments shape our personalities, it plays a huge part in who we are or who we become.More often than not, these moments are not pleasant and we try and lock them away in a hidden closet of the mind, instead of accepting them as necessary tools of learning. The moments itself do not define who we are, its what we learn from these moments an [..] > read more

I wonder?

Published on 2011-08-27 13:45:00

I sit alone and wonder...Where you are and what you are doing;Do you think of me for a fleeting momentor are you having too much fun?I don't say a word and ask no questions,but I wonder if you know that I worry?That I only fall asleep once I hear yourfootsteps as I then know that you are safe.I sit alone and wonder...Where you are and what you are doing;Do you wish I was there with you or are you glad I'm not as I will only cramp your style?I don't say a word and ask no questions,but I wonder if [..] > read more

Naked truth

Published on 2011-08-13 11:55:00

Your words cut like a knife,hurting me so fucking deeply,because its the naked truth!I'm truly heart broken.I've always done my best to shield you from the ever present dangerand have made a point of keepingmy secrets well hidden, why couldn't he do the same?If only I can explain, tellyou how it really is,but I can't!In your eyes I'm a weakling, a cowardto the very end, but my girl howwrong you are in that regard!You have no idea what I gothrough daily to protect you! How strong I have to be to [..] > read more

Standing alone

Published on 2011-07-21 09:29:00

You gave me life,You taught me to be proud but also humble,to be kind and gentle,to turn the other cheek........You taught me to be strong and to have faith,to work hard and to never give up!I want to thank you for that today!We didn't always see eye to eye I knowand to the very end I never said the wordsyou so desperately needed to hear, becauseI was too grown up, too stubborn, too proud!Maybe Im just trying to make myself feelbetter,but when we spoke for the very lasttime, your eyes told me th [..] > read more

The empty shell

Published on 2011-07-21 08:54:00

Thought things would be different,that I'd finally be able to breathe,but wishful thinking!I was so stupid, so naive! Nothing has fucking changed!I'm still the host and you the leech!When will it end?When I have no more to giveor when I finally get the guts to leave?Will my empty shell be tossed asideor will it be set on the mantelpiece with pride?Everyday I die a little morewishing for it all to end,but no such luck,you still have to be fed!I chose this path so Ihave to play the game.I just hop [..] > read more

Nowhere Land

Published on 2011-06-29 09:11:00

So lost in Nowhere LandNot here and not there;Stuck in the middle,being torn in two!Cruel Time and FateWhy now, why the long wait?Tears when looking at you;Tears when thinking about you;Tears of joy and utter bliss;Tears, constant tears, cause you ar > read more

The Parallel World

Published on 2011-04-02 13:08:00

The day before you came Going through the motions........breathing, eating, working, sleeping...existing;The mundane, the safe and the norm;Content with what I have,accepting that which is lacking;Compromise, grayness, darkness.....speckled with the > read more

Stolen Moments

Published on 2011-03-22 17:08:00

Living for the stolen moments in time,when transported on the wings of desire;The precious hours, minutes, secondsso fleeting, but yet so enduring,Forever Imprinted on the senses and in the mind;The sparkle in the eyes, the lips, the smile;The smell > read more

Pale noon

Published on 2011-03-12 17:29:00

Ego ruling your life,thriving on strife;Limelight your drug,always so smug;Words your weapon;Bravado your shield;Offense your thrill;Pretense your mask;Insecurity your heart;Anger & violence your food,making you feel so goodAffection your pet hat > read more

Free Falling

Published on 2011-01-29 02:08:00

Round and round it goesspinning out of control,going with the flow...Non-Action?Caught in the vortex of lifeholding on tight to the unseen,the unspoken,the nothingness....Accepting?The force of gravity almosttearing you from limb to limb,the pain exc > read more

Choices

Published on 2010-12-25 16:13:00

Choices made,thought to be so right,look different in the daylight.Freedom or enslaved?When the line blursbetween love and hate;Is it the hand of fate?The outcome both know,deep within the cell memory,but what to do this time around?Let it play itse > read more

The Smoke

Published on 2010-12-25 15:45:00

Like smoke in the windobscuring the sight,dimming the light,choking the air,killing the life.....Next time around,this fire will not be litand peace will be found!~Andrea > read more

Stiched Heart

Published on 2010-12-08 17:31:00

When the heart is broken, torn in two,what is a person to do?Mend it with a thread of make belief;Try and ignore the deep seated grief;Dull the pain with happy thoughts;Pretend not to have any remorse;Puposely try to still every thought;Denying what > read more

The walls

Published on 2010-11-21 08:03:00

The walls are slowly closing in,suffocating in extreme,making it so fuckingdifficult to breathe..The pain so much,so fucking deep..How much more?How much longer beforeI can finally go home?How much longer do I have to be strong?How much longer do I h > read more

The Spell

Published on 2010-11-16 13:33:00

Like in a trance I stumble along.I can't think straight,can't concentrate!Thoughts of you consume me,day and night, night and day,can't think clearly!The constant aching,for your touch and more,what cruel fate!Pictures of you come alive,the butterfli > read more

The Remedy?

Published on 2010-10-27 16:06:00

Speaking, meeting.................touching........Wishing, wanting...................needing..........Craving, lusting......................feeling............Dreaming, seeing.................. aching.............Withdrawing, suppressing ............ > read more

Lost in Lust

Published on 2010-10-24 05:39:00

One lookthat's all it took.....Danger recognized,but like a moth drawn to the flame.This lust is driving me fucking insane!The voice like music to the ears,soothing and quelling all my fears.....Never been so weak in all my years!Surfing the wave of > read more

The Circle

Published on 2010-10-16 15:40:00

The endless race,to be in first place...Not realizing that first is last.The endless search,for love sublime....Not realizing that the love is lust.The endless hunger,that needs to be fed....Not realizing that the need is greed.The endless ambition,t > read more

Crossing The Line

Published on 2010-09-20 14:42:00

Always in total control,now for the first time led..Crossing the line.When fantasy becomes reality.Knowing it is wrong...Still not to late to take control,but choosing to surrender instead.Allowing the fuse to be lit.Feeling the heat, fanning it.Kno > read more