09/13/2013 15:09:46 PM
Here's an interesting problem sent from a subscriber, I thought I'd give it a bit of space to itself here.
This is an interesting one, because it speaks to a lot of core issues, a lot of core assumptions, about a lot of basic things we take for gran
09/06/2013 20:35:58 PM
Got a little email from a subscriber who hasn't been using their monthly questions, so I thought I'd do a bit of a piece on it.
Here's the email:
I've recently been applying great effort to learning things I've had difficulty learning in the pas
08/15/2013 23:23:15 PM
It's so easy for us to shrug our shoulders and play helpless. It's not my fault, or it's not my problem. Or even if it is my problem, I don't know how to deal with it. I'm too small, it's too big.
And in that lies a choice, a choice that reall
08/01/2013 03:04:17 AM
Hey guys and girls,
Just taking a brief pause in the daily updates. I need to get some research done for some bigger pieces/projects I'm working on, and something's got to give.
I'm still available to answer any subscriber comments, also if anyon
07/29/2013 03:15:12 AM
When you're stuck in a pit, how many ropes do you really need to get out?
Say you're there, and a rope gets chucked down. Then another, then another.
This rope looks shiny and pretty. This other one looks glittery. That one there looks like
07/27/2013 22:11:00 PM
It's seductive, isn't it? The perfect analytic answer, the equation that makes sense of it all.
We reach for that, hunger for it. In fact, we hunger for the analytic answer to a problem far more than we hunger for a solution that works.
Get a s
07/25/2013 02:01:30 AM
You know, let me tell you something personal about me that I haven't told anyone. And when I say anyone I mean literally, anyone else on Earth. Just something I noticed about myself, and the way I operate. Something that might give you a little
07/24/2013 01:04:23 AM
Why are you so motivated, Ciaran?
I get this question sometimes. I actually do get this actual question, I'm not just saying it. People really do contact me with this.
But their assumption's right inside the sentence. That I am so very motiva
07/22/2013 22:43:37 PM
Well, Ciaran, you write a lot of stuff that sounds really good and everything - but how do I get it to stick with me?
This sometimes comes up.
How do I get it to stick with others? Whenever I try convincing people to read this stuff, and
07/20/2013 22:25:03 PM
Well, this is fun. Got a comment from someone who raised a serious issue about the experiments I proposed in One Song for the Edinburgh Interpretation of Quantum Mechanics that I put together there. Here's the comment, and my response....
07/19/2013 22:51:24 PM
But I'm doing something of a root-and-branch redesign of the site. I thought I could do it quickly, but it turns out, amazingly, that computers hate me.
All the content's here, just a little facelift to make things a little less intense, I thought
07/18/2013 16:47:24 PM
Ok, this is a response to a subscriber's comment on One Song, which is the signature piece to this blog.
It's a piece that I spent 15 months researching, just that one piece alone, and is in many ways the coming together of many years of work. It
07/18/2013 00:34:01 AM
It's really simple, but very strange.
Imagine this - you get a chunk of caring. Like, just caring, the distilled, purified thing in itself. Just hypothetically.
I mean caring. Just normal compassion, caring. Love, if you want to get squiff
07/16/2013 21:08:58 PM
We're all someone else's demon.
And the fact is that we can see the faults and failings of others with far greater accuracy than we care to see our own.
All these delusions that people live inside, that you can see through very clearly - I'm sure
07/15/2013 18:54:11 PM
We're just meat, projecting pictures of people.
And our picture has to something everyone likes - but also something different, something distinct, so everyone can know it's us.
So we juggle with conformity. We like to fit in, but not too much.
07/13/2013 19:41:47 PM
It's a strange thing that so many people work so hard to help themselves and only succeed in making themselves miserable.
And whenever we find something strange, we should be aware. A bell should ring, sound a little alarm.
Here... dig here.
07/12/2013 22:57:36 PM
You just need to let go of the pain, of the suffering. Let it go, that's what they say. Let go of your worries, let go of anxiety. Let go of loneliness, and friendship will just happen, let go of the bad, just let go of the bad.
How much money
07/11/2013 21:07:30 PM
Love me. Love me. Love me.
The things we would do for that. The horrors we would ignore, the lives we would destroy, just to look, just for now, like we've got it all together, live we're in control.
The greatest fear of the human condition i
07/10/2013 22:32:13 PM
The diversity of the modern world is a wonderful thing. There are so many different people, but also so many different perspectives. The iron grip of dogma, be it political or religious, is fighting a losing battle, and we are free now in a way t
07/09/2013 22:16:10 PM
Humanity doesn't need another ideology. It doesn't matter how accurate it may be, or how helpful. Most ideologies have some level of truth to them - not all, but most.
We think of the all the ideas laid out in front of us, and it seems that the
07/08/2013 18:41:16 PM
It seems a strange thing that we should release our grasp on the things we want to keep, the things we want to have stay, the things we want to come again.
But then, we are shadows all, flickering images cast. Our grip has no more purchase than a
07/07/2013 00:40:07 AM
I've been sussing out some ideas after reading your work for the last few months. Some of the things I've picked up that have stuck that is..
We're starting with coming to know the "flavor" of reality. The taste of the real. Being abl
07/05/2013 21:03:22 PM
It is so obvious that suffering is the problem. Whatever form it takes, be it fear or anger, hate or anxiety, sorrow or loneliness.
If only we could just wipe it out, wipe it away, and live our lives free of such things.
So obvious, and like many
07/04/2013 20:00:12 PM
White light of course, is something of a mongrel. All the different colours together, and there we have it.
We think of our emotions as a spectrum, and the feelings like all the different colours. Red, blue, green, orange, happy, sad, angry,
07/03/2013 19:22:33 PM
Are we just consumers then? Is that the measure of us? That we fill our lives with baubles as once they were filled with rosaries?
That we leap to find problems, and revel in them, because in doing so we can look as if we care but never have to
07/02/2013 18:31:26 PM
Why would you ever hold a grudge? What is the point?
It is said that people do not change, but this is not true. Changing is all people do, it is their nature, like shadows cast by a fire on the wall of a cave. They flicker and move, rise and
07/01/2013 20:43:16 PM
I was fortunate enough to have a music teacher who didn't do the whole 'music grade' thing.
I simply took stuff that I wanted to learn how to play, for the joy of playing, and we'd sit down and look at it, learn it. The note-for-not
06/29/2013 18:46:40 PM
When you find something true, something good, something important, it seems only natural to protect it. To keep it safe from the barbarians at the door, from the philistines and the heathens, from the dishonest and the deluded.
Argue the arguments
06/28/2013 19:50:35 PM
You might be forgiven for thinking that male lions have it easy. They don't need to do much. Don't need to hunt, for instance, the lionesses take care of that. Don't need to do much of anything, except lie around, and make sure that all of the
06/27/2013 17:50:29 PM
I hope you're proud of yourself, making such a terrible fool of me.
It's your potential, you see, I can't look away from it. That spark of spirit and genius that in anyone can be fanned to a flame, and that's why I don't stop doing this, because i
06/25/2013 14:56:08 PM
The commissioning client for this piece has chosen to remain anonymous.
Three years ago, aged 19, I started reading a book which described the sheer probability involved with existing at all. It used some pretty imaginative concepts, de
06/24/2013 17:48:56 PM
We are told that talent is what matters, it is one of the first things anyone says of a person who has done well. It is very rarely what a person who has done well says of themselves, or of how they did it.
We love talent, the idea of talent.
06/22/2013 19:41:29 PM
Your opinion matters. It matters so much. What you believe matters too.
This is an assumption that sits right at the centre of our lives. We're taught it from a very young age. If you've got the right opinions, you're a good person. If yo
06/21/2013 09:53:42 AM
What do I say? What's the right thing to say?
What do I say in an interview, that will get me the job? What do I say to someone that will make them like me? What do I say to someone I'm interested in that will make them want me? What do I s
06/20/2013 18:50:07 PM
We gauge who we are by how we feel. How well we're doing, how sorted out we are, how free we are.
But the thing is, when you feel good, you think everything's fine and wonderful, and better than wonderful, and so you feel better still, and this fe
06/19/2013 18:03:39 PM
The light of truth, that's what they call it. A shining shaft of purest white. The brighter, the better.
But it would be a pitiful thing if the best we could hope for was a monochrome world, no matter how bright it was.
It's easy to forget tha
06/18/2013 17:32:04 PM
It's a tempting thing when you hear something that rings true for you, to try and persuade other people that it's true.
This is so basic an approach that it seems to many incomprehensible that there would be a problem with it, but there is.
06/17/2013 16:47:14 PM
Does a flute worry about how it's notes will be received?
Is it sitting there, anxious, about how each one will sound to the ears of this audience member, or that audience member?
Does it chart the market? Does it get a sense of the demographics
06/15/2013 17:44:16 PM
Have you ever noticed that cities look like lichen from the sky? Like lichen, growing on a rock. It's a curious thing.
Curious that a person can live their whole lives inside a city, and never see that. Never see what it looks like when y
06/14/2013 15:24:59 PM
All the things that torment humanity, the division, the corruption, the waste - they all depend for their existence on people pushed up to the glass.
We split things further and further into smaller and smaller parts, and think of ourselves as pione
06/13/2013 18:11:53 PM
If you believe that your belief can change things, that what you believe can actually make things real, or that your desire for something will make it happen, or that if you just think positive, positive things will flow toward you, or anything like
06/12/2013 17:52:14 PM
It is a strange thing to think that so many people seek happiness, and a sense of self worth, but so few seek to live a life worth being happy about.
If all you care about is the feeling of happiness, you can try to get that by ignoring everything t
06/11/2013 18:00:39 PM
Arrogance narrows a person's vision down to only those things that flatter them.
Humility opens a persons vision up to all the things that are possible, things the arrogant never see.
Those possibilities call. The deep call of the real, of am
06/10/2013 13:14:02 PM
Stripping the magical elements from ancient wisdom is not betrayal of that wisdom, but loyalty to the reality it describes.
Rejecting ancient wisdom is not an extreme form of rationality, just irrational extremism of a different shade.
The hand fro
06/08/2013 10:31:01 AM
Wouldn't it be wonderful if you were never wrong?
Such a wonderful thing, it would seem, and so very, very rare. Who, after all, is never wrong?
But then of course, scratch the surface and you'll find something quite surprising. Anyone can do i
06/06/2013 08:21:06 AM
What is more majestic?
The myths people told about the constellations, or the stars in the sky?
The legends of the origin of life, or the elegant beauty of evolution?
The little stories we weave to make sense of the world, or the sense the world r
06/05/2013 10:10:32 AM
They say there's nothing new under the sun, but they're wrong of course.
You can fit everything you see into pre-existing categories, stick your labels all over it, this is this, that is that. And you can live like this, and do it to the whole world
06/04/2013 17:59:23 PM
Without humility to the truth, human beings are just echo boxes.
When we hear something new, we ask - can we spout out an opinion on this? And if we can't, we ignore it. And if we can, we spout, and we move on.
Opinions piling on opinions. Nois
06/03/2013 08:48:41 AM
The commissioning client for this article has chosen to remain anonymous.
I'm looking for help. I'm quite exhausted. Your articles seem to speak in a level of authenticity and clarity I haven't found elsewhere so I'm approaching you.
06/01/2013 16:41:40 PM
Humility is often seen as the capacity to settle for less, because you're so humble you don't need to achieve more.
"I don't need to be that successful. I'm not the kind of person who needs that."
As if the only reason anyone succeeded at
05/31/2013 08:03:52 AM
It's not the moments when you're amazing and seen to be amazing that you decide where your life will go.
It's not when you're standing on a stage, nailing a performance, or putting the finishing touches to your masterpiece, or laughing off a wonderf
05/30/2013 21:39:42 PM
05/29/2013 12:55:56 PM
Problems can never be solved, because reality doesn't have problems.
Problems are things humans contrive. If you get a good one you can talk about it all day.
Problems are used as fodder so people who like the sound of their own voices c
05/28/2013 14:21:02 PM
The basic approach that is instilled across our culture is that what you believe is true, if only you believe it enough.
Wisdom begins when you stop believing this because it is nice, and start questioning it because it is ridiculous.
05/27/2013 09:11:50 AM
Every ideal that we strive for fails to deliver. We want to become this, become that. Become a person who is excellent, and seen to be excellent, and never has to deal with criticism, pain or anxiety.
But if you seek peace, you will never find i
05/26/2013 08:14:30 AM
What you sink your time into is what you become good at. You can't stop that, you just get better at something you do. You develop finesse, effectiveness, sophistication.
But this is a double-edged sword. What if you spend your whole life wor
05/25/2013 17:24:11 PM
If your world is only as big as the things you consider possible, what does cynicism do to a person?
Living in a world where cheap promises are as plentiful as sand on a seashore, we can't believe in everything. And if we do, we start to believe
05/23/2013 13:15:00 PM
Have you ever had that feeling in your life where nothing seems to work out the way you want it to?
Where no matter what you try, or how hard you push, things just don't ever seem to go the way they should?
This is very, very common, and there are
05/19/2013 16:09:19 PM
I've been doing some work behind the scenes on the site recently. I was given a wonderful, and extremely useful present by someone very nice (thanks Erik) - a professional quality recording microphone.
I'd been wanting to get some audio recorded,
05/17/2013 09:01:27 AM
This was an earlier post which worked to go into the core dynamics of the work of Karl Popper.
His work on opening up the scientific method has been critical in the development of the work done on this site.
With that said, it's a very old piece, a
05/09/2013 17:02:28 PM
Sir Karl Popper was the 20th century's preeminent philosopher of science. Now before you all tune out and start watching cats on YouTube, here's why that matters.
Science produces knowledge with a precision and clarity that nothing else has ever m
05/08/2013 04:34:56 AM
Just got an email from a guy called Chris Jordan, who made me aware of a film project he's working on. It's got some really strong support so far from such luminaries as Edward "Fight Club" Norton, and it's just brilliant.
When I first started loo
04/27/2013 19:47:48 PM
Winston Churchill one made quite a profound observation about how the British people handled the Second World War. He said that the war passed through phases. You had the 'phoney war' period, you had the Blitz, you had the North African campaign,
04/21/2013 22:26:40 PM
There is a keen interest in those who look to the future with hope, to be also aware of the dangers. And perhaps the most misunderstood - but brilliant - philosophers of the future was a Frenchman called Jean Baudrillard. You may or may not know
04/15/2013 17:48:40 PM
This companion piece to
One Song was commissioned by Erik Blanchard.
There's a new way to
live a life where you never have to be angry or sad. It's really
easy, and you can test it yourself. And it works like this.
Much like a peacock's
04/11/2013 08:36:01 AM
Once more I post a notice for all who have the email updates. I'm doing a bit of editing of the archive, and Google is clearly enraged by this. It keeps sending out random updates.
It won't be doing this for long, but that's what's happening.
04/10/2013 15:10:43 PM
Guest has joined.
Guest: "Eternal Taranus - Drawer of Sword - Causer of Sores!
Birthed of Lightning, Feet of Stone, Arms of Oak,
Skull of Starshine - make Fast about me!
Cut down my enemies, scattering their pieces to the wind.
Let the Blac
03/08/2013 01:49:42 AM
This piece was commissioned by Sally Wijesundera.
Part 1: The Bully, And His Accomplice.
There is a lot of needless sadness in the world. A lot of needless fear, and needless conflict. A lot of wars that seem so very needless, wars on a large
01/06/2012 23:14:58 PM
Pretty busy, and as always unable to multitask. Book's coming along nicely, should be something of a surprise for people, decided to take a new angle for it, it's looking good so far.
In other news I've been commissioned to write a piece, so that'll be coming up as soon as I can get it done, it's a book review of quite a weighty tome, but a good one, so it should be fun for all and sundry.
12/12/2011 21:43:25 PM
Today's question is simple:
Where are we going with this? What is the end result of doing all of this work, this searching for truth? Interacting with the world in a better way? What is trying to be accomplished. At this point the only thing pushing me is simply curiosity. Is there ever an end or a perfect understanding? It seems the original goal was to make the world a better place, but lots
12/10/2011 16:26:39 PM
A quick update - there's a lot of questions being thrown at me, so I've decided to open up a new way for you to hire me, if you like.
I'll answer questions, or write articles, and generally keep this blog updated, but if you would like my attention on a specific question that's sticking with you, you can commission me to write an article on it. It costs £100 to commission me to write an
12/10/2011 16:21:27 PM
Why do you appear to reject so many people's ideas offhand but also challenge people to always consider "what if this idea is true"?
I've spent the majority of my life looking deeply into things. I didn't crack enlightenment on my day off, and I didn't stitch some dogma together. I worked a long time, digging into the truth of things.
It is a straightforward thing to use the scientific
12/09/2011 14:16:27 PM
I'm afraid to lose my dreams. That looking carefully would make me realize something that, for example, would make me selfless, and everything would be gone. Not to stop moving or changing, but to start to wish for something else entirely. Life is scary, if you consider it for a moment what can happen any moment. But that is just terrifying - losing my momentum, losing the foundation already
12/08/2011 13:27:40 PM
Ok, so, question time.
The whole thing is pointless is it not? You or whatever you call it, has no control to change anything, nothing to change and all that jazz. So what is your beef? I mean change who? You speak of people, and others as if they exist. As if you exist. Yet you write, write to whom? There are no people here, there is no one to save, nothing to say. i don't know, but you can,
12/07/2011 12:02:46 PM
Just for a little while.
I'm currently putting together a very big post, it's going to be a signature piece, something on the kind of scale as Demon Theory or The Thunder And The Sunshine.
I may even turn it into a book, it is looking quite interesting, but we'll see.
I want to keep this blog updated, but I don't want to split my focus too much, so here's what we'll do.
If you have
12/06/2011 11:00:25 AM
me: You're early...how's it going?
Christopher: Going well and have been looking forward to this since first reading your work and it NAILED ME
me: hahaniceso - how long ago was that? How did you find me?
Christopher: I am a slow typer so patience will be required!I came upon your work for the first time one day before I contacted you. Read everything that I could find on the net
12/05/2011 18:04:02 PM
Thought I'd respond to this email in public:
hey man, great work, um first found out about you through a link in some random post. any ways first i want to thank you for even having a blog or brining this out to public awarness because i shit you not i thought i was the only fucker out there tring to figure this shit out. So i was a huge relief to see you and read your book brutal beginnings and
12/05/2011 07:47:01 AM
Here's a fun experiment. Pick up a bible. Find the Gospel of Luke. Hold the whole Gospel between your thumb and forefinger, and look at how much of that book dangles in the air.
The Gospel Of Luke is 2.9% of the Bible, roughly, by volume. It is the longest and most complete account of the work of Jesus. 2.9%.
One of the things I've noticed about the work of Jesus is that it's almost
07/04/2011 09:42:54 AM
There really is only one philosophical question that matters.
What. The fuck. Is going on?
I thought that cracking enlightenment would answer it. If anything, the mystery has deepened.
I've seen liberated people at each other's t
06/29/2011 20:04:15 PM
Scott Kiloby is a 'teacher of spirituality'. We have had our run-ins. This is his website:
He recently opened a group which claimed to be 'no-holds barred', and focused on enlightenment/liberation.
I, like a fool, believe this
06/29/2011 06:47:50 AM
Todayhey sexusexynot sexuthat's not a wordyou there?meh no-one ever talks to mesorry got a shitstorm at work just now but i love you anywayoh sorrydon't worry about responding right awayjust wanted to hook you indon't know if you've seenbut nick r
06/28/2011 22:47:26 PM
8 hours ago
no problem if you dont
8 hours ago
8 hours ago
i honestly cant see how i'm not out
you guys banned me grom the arena for "not looking"
but i actually did
06/26/2011 16:28:08 PM
so yeah how you finding this liberation schtick ? bit of a change of pace, eh? hell yeah roller coaster ride like the mind going eee-aaa-ooo all day and night yeah it can take some getting used to and I was just tellin
06/20/2011 05:36:24 AM
Talk about oversold.
This enlightenment thing's a fucking rip. Total and immediate dissolution of all negativity? Uh.... yeah. No.
I myself am still waiting on my consignment of magical powers, which I can only assume are still in the mail.
06/18/2011 15:13:22 PM
The following passage is from Brutal Beginnings, a free ebook, which can be downloaded for free, by clicking the link either here, or on the free resources tab on the topbar.
I'm going through it now, preparing it for hardcopy release, and, just as
06/17/2011 13:50:41 PM
It's interesting to see that void has become a hot topic now. One of my immediate secondary recognitions after liberation, and I mean just a day or two after, was the permanent presence of unbounded space. The not-stuff within which stuff does all of
06/12/2011 13:36:40 PM
Basically, I'm a historian. I know that sounds weird, and it is, but that's what my degree is in, and it's what I've trained as.
A big part of that is research. A historian can't even put pen to paper unless they've taken the tim
06/12/2011 11:55:50 AM
Ok, so can someone explain me the void thing, as if you explain that to 8 years old? big empty space where self should be it's peaceful ok, but how do I see that peace? look are you liberated? yes well it's just the same i
06/08/2011 06:29:01 AM
So yeah, just deleted 12 recent posts. The reason is simple - I got sloppy, and didn't obey my own rules of cooldown, and thus zigged when I should have zagged. The whole 'character' angle, it seems, was a wild goose chase.
I'm sorry about that.
06/06/2011 09:11:31 AM
Guest: About your new blog post: to be honest, I'm not clear on what it is you've done other than add a new perspective to "void", "stillness" etc.What has been accomplished? me: wellwhen the void has depth and dimensio
06/06/2011 06:47:06 AM
Christ. That was horrible.
Ever since cracking this whole enlightenment thing, one question has been first on everyone's lips - everyone who's free, that is. How do you deepen the liberated state?
It's a good question. My earlier reticence t
03/21/2011 19:03:44 PM
Today eelllo. 23:15 heya sorry - haven't had a chance to read your message i just logged in after a few days off facebook my life has decided to be very dramatic at me, and is taking a lot of my attention right now arse att
03/19/2011 18:49:32 PM
Today so am i totally off base? or is everyone else not seeing this tell me what's going on with you and we'll see i sent you a message i'll resend it grr to my facebook? email? yes to facebook oh right t
03/18/2011 15:10:42 PM
Today wow this is ridiculously cool 19:43 yup i just thought of it as the feel to when i play guitar how i make a song my "own" yeah good and then looked at everything in my life and boom that was e
03/17/2011 19:21:33 PM
Guest has joined.
Guest: Hey. This is me reprting back. It's Steve.reporting Sent at 12:06 AM on Friday
Guest: hi. so I looked at the character of Steve like one might look at the character Hamlet.Except I haven't read Hamle
03/17/2011 19:15:07 PM
becky: have you talked much to ben smythe?i know you posted a few things on this fb awhile ago, but i wondered if you'd had any private discussions or worked together on any looking
me: i swore at him a bit
03/17/2011 16:49:54 PM
Today is there anything inherently wrong with the fictional persona other than the fact that its not real? isnt it just a tool to interact with reality just like any other concept? no but that's not the point it's not about discardin
03/17/2011 14:21:34 PM
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Guest: You there, Ciaran? Sent at 6:51 PM on Thursday
me: yuphow's it going? Sent at 6:53 PM on Thursday
Guest: Good thanks and you? This is Steve. Not StepVheN. Exile Steve. Just read your email and have been fo
03/17/2011 10:48:45 AM
Today 13:58 holy hell alright it's like you're playing for consciousness
acting for the audience of consciousness
god, that is a horrible mess yeah, its a mess but that hit me alright so everything even uh the way i p
03/16/2011 21:09:56 PM
Mark: hello me: hello
Mark: I got somewhere with the character thing
Mark: it seems... inexhaustible?maybe?
me: stop speculating
Mark: I'm gonna work it for another day or two
me: look matei'll tell you